screw it

it’s been a pretty sad day…or should i say boring? anyway, it all falls down to that aspect. am here again…trying to find an outlet for some of my emotions. I’m pretty screwed up right now…haha…Can’t believe this shit is happening to me, heck, i don’t know what to do anymore…geez, is there something wrong with me? am i that stupid that i can’t pick myself up. anyway…enough for self pity..i’m just tired…sick and tired of this whole thing…but i’ll get back on my feet, right? please say yes, haha, how pathetic, can anyone answer me out there?? everything will be just fine, right??? right, guys??? i just need proper motivation…i’ve been letting people down..and it’s sad, and it hurts, and i don’t know what to do anymore to gain back their trust, and now i’m running out of sense. i broke down in front of her and probably be in front of them soon enough…i just feel weak now.. is there any medications for the soul/spirit? haha…am i over dramatic or what…i’m messing up pretty badly and i guess no one can help me but myself, but the problem is i don’t know how to start this ’self-helping-process.’ Screw it.