screw it

uhmm…hehe…here i am again…i’m not sure if there’s anything to say..hai…i don’t know if we have homeworks or quizzes for tomorrow so i decided to write a blog…it’s been quite a while and i just have a quick question..is it possible for love to fade? can a person actually fall out of love? just when your partner is at the peak of her undying passionate love for you that is when she also feels that you no longer feel the same..that you’ve lost that loving feeling…hehe…it’s sad..specially when you get the thought that you’ve nearly gave all the love you have and suddenly, at an instant, your partner no longer feels the same way…The partner denies that he’s changed, the partner claims that he  loves you like he always has…but that’s not what you see or feel…Moments spent with him used to be sweet, although there were fights, they were still sweet and gentle..because he used to be so understanding and patient…he fixed those misunderstandings through sweet words and gentle touches..but now…all that’s left is him staring at you asking, ‘what the hell is wrong with you???? what did i do wrong again???? do we always have to go through this??? do we always have to fight about your petty problems with me???’  that’s how the  fight ends..each of them just go their seperate ways…nope, there’s no break-up, people..there’s just this fierce stab in  your heart and  you just sit there…wishing that he wouldn’t have changed his sweet ways while you were in the process of  falling deeper inlove..hai…just a couple of days ago, you were thinking how lucky you were to have him, to have someone so understanding, so sweet, and so gentle compared to your friends who kept on telling you stories about their sad love lives, about their boyfriends who don’t treat them well…you used to brag how happy you are with your partner, how opposite your situation is with your friends’…but now you come to the realization that your relationship sucks just like their’s, that your no different from them…hehe…now that’s a whack at your face…sad… but still…you do love him, right? everything’s going to be alright..things would go back to how they used to be… you’d always hope for the best…you’d hope that he’d come to his senses and realize how madly inlove he still is with you…your not expecting a break-up after all of this, this isn’t what you think, this isn’t a hint or a gist  of a break-up…it’s merely a complaint, or rather a way of bringing out that you do hope for things to work! you don’t wish for anything negative. you only want some understanding! something that you used to get so often before! Just SOMETHING to assure yourself that your still as important as you used to be. that’s all…hai…you might as well regret writing this blog after a while but all the effort and emotional distress spent in  this would be a waste if you won’t post it, right? hai…