Saturday, April 8th, 2006
am i making such a big deal out of this? masyado ko bang pinalalaki yung pangyayari? baka kasi nagsunud-sunod na…naipon na…kaya nagkaganun…hai… One of my friends told me that this was just one of our ordinary fights…i knew it wasn’t but i wanted to believe what my friend said, i wanted to believe that this was just one of the usual fights… and so it wasn’t… it wasn’t what i wanted it to be. I’ve grown to be so mad last thursday and friday..i’ve become bitter. but it all passed…the anger faded away and is now gone..all that’s left is hurt and pain…and questions that most probably can’t be answered… At some point, i came to think..was it actually my fault? i gave you all the freedom you can ask for from me.. should have i expected that soon enough you’d draw me to the limits? hay…i don’t know what to do anymore…you mean so much to me…now you come to me..admitting that you were wrong…should i just let go of it? forgive you then pretend it never happened? should i go believing and having faith in you all over again, believing that you’ll never hurt me this much again…having faith that you’ll change…for all the other times you’ve hurt me, i’ve let them all go…should i do the same this time? is this the right thing to do? maybe so..because i still feel the same way for you…nothing has changed with the way i feel for you…i just hope…you’d do something…something to make it up… i need to see some effort, i want reassurance that i’m not wasting all of this whatever i’m giving away to you…hai…i guess that’s all i can say…that’s all i can ask for because for sure you can’t turn back time and change how things worked, right? that’s it i guess….i hope this time…you’d keep your promises…i hope this time…you won’t leave… wooosaaaahhh you still…
